Lee's Story
Chapter One - The warning signs were there from the start

This is a true story written by a survivor of domestic violence.
Names have been changed to protect the identities of those involved.
Copyright - Lee & Wonderful Women 2009

It was the summer of January 1986. I was just seventeen years and four months old . . . and pregnant!

Feelings of both fear and excitement overwhelmed me. Thoughts raced through my young head. ‘What will my mom say’, ‘what about giving birth – I bet it hurts like mad”.

Little did I realise then that this pregnancy was my ticket to a fifteen-year life of hell.

I had met my abuser about a year or so earlier. An apprentice electrician working for Eskom, Mike was twenty three and lived with his parents in their Sandton home in South Africa. I had just completed standard eight at college, and was living with my parents in Randburg.

Mike and I had met through mutual friends. We started dating during July 1985.

Between July ‘85, and that summer afternoon in January 1986, there had been a few warning signs as to what this man was all about. One evening while Mike was visiting me two friends (male) popped in. Within minutes of their arrival, Mike flew into a jealous rage, attacking one of them. My poor friend was rammed into my bedroom cupboard, and punched in the face. Somehow I managed to pull Mike off him. Afterwards the two fled.

I was in shock. I couldn’t believe what had just happened. There had been absolutely no provocation. “You’re a whore” Mike shouted, despite my desperate attempts at convincing him that the two were nothing more than friends. Then he stormed off, enraged.

Another incident happened after an evening out with Mike and his brother Paul. We were on our way back to my parent’s house. Mike was driving his brown Volkswagen Beetle. He had been drinking. The journey became a nightmare with Mike hurling insults at me in front of his brother. Oh, the humiliation. Then we ran out of petrol.

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Mike got out of the car, and set off hoping to find a garage. I tried to get out too, so I could make my own way home. I just wanted to get away from the verbal abuse. Paul grabbed my arm, and refused to let me leave. After Mike returned with the petrol a short while later, the insults and put-downs continued.

Of course there were a number of other similar occurrences, and I soon realised that alcohol was involved in all of them.

On the surface Mike seemed nice. Very good looking with blue eyes and black hair, there was never a shortage of girls swooning over him. Popular at school, he’d excelled at sport and had what seemed to be a very normal family life. His father was hard-working and held a Senior Supervisor post with Eskom. His mother was a dedicated housewife. Besides Paul, Mike also had a sister Maria. The youngest of the three, Mike was the only one still living at home.

During the first six months of our relationship, there were a lot of good times. We got on really well and had loads of good laughs together. Mike also used to spend hours confiding in me about his family life.

But increasingly alcohol ruined things. To the point where I soon found myself weighing up the ‘good against the bad.’ Reaching the conclusion that if I could just get Mike to stay off the booze, there was a chance we could be very happy together. Of course, at the tender age of seventeen, I was not emotionally equipped to even consider that there could be a reason why this man drank so much.

Lost in thought, I walked the three blocks from the doctor’s to my home that January afternoon. Inside, my poor mother was alone, recovering from a recent Hysterectomy.
“So what did the doctor say Love – a bladder infection?”
“Er, not quite, Mom”, I replied softly.
 It took her all of ten minutes to get over the shock of what I told her next. She wrapped her arms around me, and assured me that she was there for me, and that we’d get through this together. Phew! I thought. That went okay.  

Mike had pretty much moved in with us by this stage, and when I announced to him that he was going to be a Dad, he was thrilled.

“Cool, mom’s supportive, boyfriend’s ecstatic – we can do this.” That’s how I felt.

The news did not go down quite as well with Mike’s parents and sister.

Mike’s mother had always thought I was beneath their family, and that Mike could do a lot better then me. And she made her feelings perfectly clear. Maria, who had given birth to Mike’s parents’ first grandchild in November a few months before, was another story altogether! She wasted no time in phoning me up, and blasting me.
“How could you do this to my brother?” she demanded. “How are the two of you going to support a child?”
I had never, ever experienced such hatred from a person as I did during that phone call. I was in tears.

Nonetheless, the baby’s future grandparents jumped into action. A wedding had to be planned, and fast.

Looking back, I don’t recall ever being asked if I wanted to marry Mike. His mother just seemed to be driving everything; damage control I suppose. After my ‘big announcement’ I remember overhearing comments like “we must get this wedding done before she shows” as well as “we don’t want people thinking she was pregnant before the wedding”.

My parents were gentle people who did not like confrontation. They simply went with the flow and the wedding was planned for the end of February 1986.

Mike’s mother set about securing the hall for the reception. The marriage vows would take place at the Rivonia Catholic Church.

My Mom made both my wedding dress and our wedding cake – while still healing from major surgery. It was a busy time for us all.

I managed to secure a little job running a gift shop, and Mike continued working with Eskom as an apprentice.

Things settled into an uneasy calm in the weeks leading up to the wedding.

Mike sort of floated about with his head in the clouds, mercifully controlling his need to drink, so his bad temper appeared to have subsided.

Things are getting better, I thought.

Then came the wedding; an evening I will never forget.

To be continued next month . . .

“If just one woman, trapped in an abusive relationship is able to find the
emotional tools to leave and better her life through reading my story, then writing
it will have been worth it.” – Lee